Monday, 17 June 2019

4 years and 1 month - The power of sleep - Time for another experiment on me


Another week is now done and dusted. It’s been a ‘different’ one for want of a better description.
The notable high point was Gareth came home from work and brought me a massive bunch of roses on Friday with a bottle of Silent Pool Gin and a lovely big gin glass. He came home from work on Friday, said to stay home and cuddle the cat and took the dogs to the park. I found the flowers and gin in the kitchen 45 minutes later with a note propped up on the front simply saying ‘Happy Friday’

Low point – As I posted last week, Monday’s torrential rain brought down a massive tree / bush in the back garden. I had a gardener round on Friday to give us a quote to get rid of it, along with a load of other general ‘grooming’ work for the garden – the bill will be 4 figures to get all of the work done but I’ve seen sense and I’m going to have them come in for a couple of hours each month going forwards o keep on top of it. We actually dissected the thing yesterday in the sunshine. It’s really rewarding to be doing something so physical, but let’s be honest, I got  a bit carried away did far more than I should and properly broke myself as a result. It’s now down the side of the house waiting to be taken away either in the week if our friend can get his Landover and trailer down the lane or at the weekend by the gardeners.
I’ve also discovered a new reading experience – something completely out of the norm of my usual fiction diet of vampire, werewolf and big kids ‘action stories’. Gareth had bought the book ‘Why Do We Sleep’ by Matthew Walker. I had to buy my own copy as Gareth is actually reading a ‘real book’ one made of paper. Mine is the eBook variety, but I’ve also ordered the Audio Book version to listen while I’m working (I’m listening as I type) The concept of sleep as a prescription for human beings and it’s benefits for physical and mental health. There are some incredibly simple concepts about how and when sleep provides benefits to us.

I should add that whilst I often ‘nap’ on the sofa in the evening these days which I’ve put down to the side effects of my thyroid going on the frisk. I’m pretty rubbish at going to bed it’s usually around midnight on weeknights or at weekends. My alarm on weekdays goes off at 7am so I’m functioning on 7 hours sleep at the most. The research and studies in this book show that is the equivalent of losing a whole night’s sleep each week – which is pretty obvious really when you bear in mind that 8 hours a night is the recommended amount for general health and wellbeing.
At the risk of becoming an anorak about the subject, the Light NREM sleep,, Deep NREM sleep and REM sleep time and duration has proven to be fascinating. Explanations of why our behaviours and type of sleep have proven really fascinating. I’m going to make some changes to how I sleep and do a little ‘research’ on myself’ to see if it makes any changes. I’m thinking that work won’t be up for the idea that a 90 minute nap early afternoon will be beneficial for my overall daily productivity but I’ll certainly be going to bed earlier in the coming weeks to see if it has some beneficial effects.

I have my monthly bloods this Friday the first batch of year 5 – I’m still rather nervous at the idea that this is my last year of bloods – I’m going to not mention that it’s only for 5 years again at the doctors, just go in each month and see if anyone notices that it’s only supposed to be for 5 years.
Yesterday was Father’s Day here in the UK, always a little poignant but yesterday even more so as it was also a year since Gareth and I took our cat BamBam on his last journey a year ago in order for him to cross the Rainbow Bridge and join his old friend Gizmo again – I hope they’re having fun again together as well as ‘hunting’ – I put the hunting in quotes as they were both pretty talented at ‘hunting’ BBQ food and would through the summer bring home successfully ‘hunted’ Kebabs on sticks, bits of burger or just lumps of unidentifiable BBQ’d goodies. Anyway what I was getting round to (slowly) is that for father’s day the animals and I bought Gareth another bottle of the nice scotch that I got for his 40th birthday.

I’ve not done the video for YouTube yet – this is simply because it hasn’t stopped raining here in the UK all week. It’s been wet and windy and really quite crap. Today the weather seems to be better so if I can get Gareth to help I will have a crack at recording it tonight perhaps at the dog park if it’s nice and not too windy. Failing that it’s likely to be later this week or the weekend (I’m tempted to wait until the garden has been done and it’s prettier since I want to do it outside with the dogs wandering around and doing their thing) – I’m not going to welch on my promise – I promise J
Anyway that’s enough from me for now unless something exciting happens over the course of the week.

Stay well and try to get a good quality 8 hours sleep
xx

Wednesday, 12 June 2019

Over 200,000 views

WOW Just WOW

And it's finally stopped raining here in Berkshire but it hasn't been without it's toll on the garden which you're going to see on the video since the tree / bush that's fallen over is quite likely to still be there - actually Gareth has said he will at least disect the thing into man-handleable chunks tonight - then it can be put down the side of the house until our lovely friend who has a LandRover, a trailer and a great big farm where he regularly burns his fallen shrubbery can get over to us next week.

Apart from that, the only other interesting thing is that I had to go back to the opticians last night and chose another frame for reading glasses because the prescription for my elderly (and somewhat damaged left eye) is so high that the 'rimless frame' simply can't hold that much weight .... EEEK - so a Dusty Pink Ghost Frame has now been chosen and hopefully they'll be here soon.

Anyway here you go, proof I'm not just making up stats about the blog being read and just sitting here whittering away at just you lovely reader.

Monday, 10 June 2019

4 years 3 weeks - Big milestone for the blog and I'm going to 'Come Out'


I woke up this morning feeling good, I had energy, I felt upbeat and raring to go. I remembered my meds on time, jumped in the car and got into work. An hour and a half later and I feel like a flat tyre, someone has ‘popped’ me and let all my air out. I’m hoping that if I don’t do too much that I’ll ‘re-inflate’ later LOL
Last week was a whole lot of relaxing outside work, we had lovely meals and chilled and did very little really. Winston had another trip out to the pub and didn’t disgrace himself (much) although there was a lot of bribing him with food involved in keeping him calm and focused on us.

When I started writing this, Lemtrada was a newly approved treatment by NICE - I was only the 3rd to have treatment at Southampton once they were approved to administer it.
I had read so much by those who participated in the trials and kindly documented their experiences so those of us that followed could read the experiences of those incredibly brave people and understand what Lemtrada was and how it felt for them. It was reading those experiences, exchanging messages, emails and sometimes late night calls with those writers that made my mind up that Lemtrada was the right choice for me. I wasn’t going to give in quietly to the MonSter, I was going to war with it and well - I’m northern and ginger and I don’t fight fair so my MS should be afraid – very afraid.

The film ‘Pay It forward’ stuck in my head. The simple concept that in your life; do something good for 3 other people for no other reason than you can and ask them to also ‘pay it forward’ to 3 more. If my random ramblings could help just a few people to understand how the treatment had  been, why I chose it, and how life has been since then – well I was ‘paying it forward’ too.
It also seemed only right that having benefitted from those stories online that I should add to the documented experiences available, not just to be a recipient, but a participant too. I’m not a talented writer, grammatically I’m terrible, I am pretty crap a spell check and goodness knows I ramble a lot; but if it helped just one person – that was enough.

It never ceases to amaze me how what is effectively my online diary of life post Lemtrada and my strange slightly animal controlled life has been read by so many people around the world. This hardly a ‘right riveting read’ it’s just a diary of a  slightly crazy middle aged bird with MS.
At some point this week though the number of reads for the blog will pass 200,000 views worldwide.

I’m staggered, humbled and just a little bit intimidated at the thought.
I feel like I should throw a virtual ‘party’ and do something different to say thank you to those who have read this over the last 4 years.

I’m going to have a chat with Gareth tonight and see if he will help me with popping something up onto YouTube. Goodness knows I’m self-conscious about my weight; I hate cameras and it’s my idea of hell, but I should stop hiding behind a keyboard and ‘come out’.
If the British weather will co-operate perhaps something filmed in the garden with the dogs running around and a G&T on standby for courage.

Just writing that terrifies me ……. Time for me to ‘Find my brave’

Tuesday, 4 June 2019

4 years 2 weeks - Summer is here and blonde me is back


So how’s the week been ….. well I still don’t have me new glasses – they were rejected again at ‘quality control’ (Seriously questioning the use of the word ‘quality’ now) apparently they are being made by their ‘in house’ people and are not working with the frame.
The new due date is Thursday this week and I’ve told them if they are arsed up a 3rd time then I expect them to bear the extra cost of sending them to the people who made my sunglasses who I hope can do the job properly. I suspect it’s something sinister in regard to my prescription and the style of the lenses – I’d be gutted after this long to be told ‘sorry but your eyes are just too rubbish to get lenses that thick in the little dainty frame you chose. Watch this space I guess.

Gareth’s new glasses had arrived yesterday ordered over 2 weeks later than mine – they look fantastic too. The benefits of being nowhere near as blind as me I guess J
I’m also now a very light blonde rather than the pretty dull shade of ‘mouse’ that I’ve been for a long time. Was gutted when I’d been here at work for an hour this morning and a total of ZERO people had noticed L (perhaps I should get them to get new glasses as wellJ)

Winston’s session with the trainer went well on Friday, he has ‘homework’ to do a few times a day gradually increasing the time away from him. She’s talked to the vet today to get Winston some ‘doggy zanax’ type medication to try to lower his stress levels – must remember to pop in and collect them on the way home tonight.
We are making good progress with Call Of Duty, only 2 series left to go. There’s also the long awaited Good Omens which I also need to sit down and watch – I first read the book over 20 years ago and it’s always been in my top 10 books, hilariously funny and it gets more funny each time I read it because I know what is coming and start chuckling before it even happens. I do hope the dramatisation is true to the book or I’ll be yelling at the TV correcting the dialogue J

I’m doing my annual ‘find someone to give the garden a damn good grooming’ routine again, the hedges and borders and weeding needs to be sorted out, I’m also going to ask for a regular monthly maintenance to be done rather than just a couple of times a year blitzing it.
Today I’m tired and wobbly – I didn’t sleep too well last night, but a good night tonight should put me back on track hopefully. I’m bimbling around the office in Bob and just getting on with stuff as you do – It’s been pointed out that I sound like a ‘drone flying around’ in the office LOL

Life is good, happy and content as it should be. Onwards and upwards everyone xxx

Wednesday, 29 May 2019

4 years and 1 week (or 1st week of year 5 depending on how you count time)

2 weeks into year the 5th year or 4 years and 2 weeks post treatment start depending on how you view it.

The long weekend has been lovely, I ended up taking the Tuesday off as well as the Bank Holiday Monday in the end. Friday wasn’t going to happen, I had another implementation over the weekend which started at 10pm on Friday night and was finally all done and dusted by 01:00 Sunday morning so 27 hours in total, but we did include time for sleep in this one which was lovely.
Gareth spent Thursday to Sunday with his Family ‘oop norf and I stayed home as dog mummy. It was a shame we both couldn’t go, but with Winston’s anxiety right now it wouldn’t have been a good experience. Gareth got to see the Hallilapse show that Christian has been working on for the last 5 years, he side it was awesome and given the extra number of shows that have sold out it’s been a roaring success.

I went to pick up my new glasses on Saturday, randomly my ‘seeing glasses’ which were due to be there were still in, but my new prescription sunglasses which weren’t due until this coming weekend had already arrived. They look fantastic, so shiny and new and when I put them on ….. well then it became really obvious the changes in my sight since the injury. The whole world was suddenly much clearer. My ‘seeing’ ones apparently failed quality control and the lenses re being remade again – quite grateful they are so strict with it and that they are taking the extra time to get it right.
In the meantime though, I’m stuck with the hideous black ones that were never meant to be seen in public.

Monday was a little bittersweet, Kirsty and Jake joined for K9. She had big news and I’m both delighted that she got the job she wanted but also sad that she got the job she wanted – it’s in Vienna, so once again she will be moving away once again L.
So I’m back at work today, a nice short 3 day week, sadly I can report that once again I have not won the lottery so my retirement plans remain on hold. I also have 5 days work to cram into 3 so that’s going to be a fun challenge.

Winston is at the vet tomorrow for a ‘mini-MOT’ – we have a trainer coming on Friday to help us with his separation anxiety and she asked we get him checked by the vet first to ensure there isn’t an underlying medical condition contributing to his behaviour change. This makes a lot of sense, dogs can be hiding many things with their generally ‘normal’ behaviours and to be honest I hadn’t even considered that there might be something medical as a trigger. She suggested possible things like ear infection, or because of the corgi in him, hip or back problems.
We have dog walks booked for the week and very little else which feels very rewarding. Just some time to chill out and enjoy life and chose what we want to do when and if we want to. I know I’m supposed to be turning over a new leaf and living more rock-star but  week of very little looks lovely right now.

I’ve got tomorrow to get through, 4 years since we lost Ian, I still can’t quite get my head around him being gone, my little brother (well as a little as a 40 year old can be) but it will be okay, emotional but okay.
Six and a half weeks to our holiday in Watchett when we booked it, the holiday seemed so far away, over 6 months away – where the heck did that time go?

We have a military wedding in Portsmouth at the end of July to prepare for, got to get a dog sitter sorted to move into our house for the weekend to keep the beasties company and exercised while we are gone.
Life is gloriously normal – long may it continue xx

Monday, 20 May 2019

Year 5 - here we go again, a review of changes and month 49 blood results


4 years and 1 week since treatment start
WOW

My Facebook feed for the last week has been full of updates from treatment week and then from round 2 a year later. It really does seem very bizarre that it was so long ago because in my head it’s seems like it was only a short time ago. So much has happened, but by the same logic in terms of my MS – well nothing has happened.
I’m now a 4 whole years NEDA – No Evidence Disease Activity. It’s exactly what I hoped for when I chose to have Lemtrada I wanted to stop the MS in its tracks and I did.

I guess it’s time for a bit of a recap really a ‘then and now’ of how things are going, please excuse the lazy copy and paste from 4 years ago for the ‘then’ part, but as I said from the start this was my way of keeping myself honest, and check I'm not remembering stuff with rose tinted glasses and to present a realistic view of how things are.
[INSERTED COPY AND PASTE]

What I had before that I now Do NOT have :
  • Cog-fog - Gone - The oxygen therapy helped with this greatly my brain is now clear (well as clear as it's ever going to get)
  • Constant Foot drop Gone - If I'm really tired this does reappear a little but a little rest and it disappears again
  • Spaghetti leg Gone - This was my name for 'whole leg drop' - the extreme of foot drop that had me in a wheelchair coming back from Milan in April 2015 - If I really overdo it and walk too much occasionally I can feel my leg getting wobbly so I slow down and rest up
  • Tiredness  - Mostly Gone - The oxygen therapy helped with this, I have tried never to call this MS Fatigue - MS has NEVER stopped me getting up and getting on with things. I regard Fatigue as an extreme where the exhaustion stops you in your tracks makes going on impossible to achieve not just bloody hard, so I call what I have tiredness - My medical team smile at me in that 'yes dear' way when I explain this so I'm probably playing it down  EDIT- I should add that I often talk about tiredness and fatigue nowadays, but this is a result of the thyroid problems that I’ve experienced in the last year and a bit – we all know thyroid problems are a distinct possibility post any IV Treatment and we have had the ‘mother load’ with Lemtrada. I had hoped to be one of the lucky ones that it passes by but sadly not. It’s why I now have ‘Bob’ for doing more strenuous things. On the sliding scale of things – it’s a small price to pay for the rest of this list being gone.
  • Bathroom Urgency - Gone - And oh boy it's nice not to hear that screaming claxon in my head yelling 'Go NOW you're about to embarrass yourself' 
  • Optic Neuritis - Gone - My vision has settled down completely now. the pain in my eyes and loss of the ability to see anything in detail (like words on a page) all returned to being just as rubbish as it's always been my whole life. My eyes might be dreadful, but I can drive, read and live normally the thought of losing that was horrific to me EDIT- to clarify, my recent eye posts are a result of an eye injury when a piece of shrapnel that got under my contact lens and gouged my eye not Optic Neuritis / MS related
  • Lack of balance - Gone - .I posted my post treatment physio assessment back in year 1 with the pre-treatment one as a comparison. The lovely Marnie was staggered, it was like night and day I could balance with my eyes open and closed, no toppling sideways and needing railings to hang on to. Now I'm just as clumsy as I always was before MS :-) EDIT- The thyroid / tiredness does affect my balance to a certain degree, the more tired I am – the more I look like I’ve been on the Gin
  • Sensation loss - Gone - Before treatment the ONLY parts of me that actually had skin sensation was my right arm and from my boobs to the top of my head. Everything has now returned to normal with the exception of my thumb and first 2 fingers of my left hand and the palm bit that joins them. That bit of my hand feels permanently like a phone is vibrating against it - this wipes out the ability to actually feel any other sensation through the 'buzzing'. I have experimented while on holiday with what's best described as a 'herbal remedy' and when the buzzing stops the sensation in my left hand is perfectly normal. My old Neuro wasn't even convinced this is MS related to be honest and might just be from the neck injuries sustained in a car accident many many years ago. EDIT- The hand sensation loss remains, it’s been so long now that I suspect it will always be so. There’s also some loss in my left arm in the last few months (see recent posts about ‘the spine guy’ – I have a problem with my C7 vertebrae pushing a disc out of place as a result of ‘a degenerative bone disease’ ….. I’ve got arthritis which is to be expected my parents had the hereditary form so I wasn’t likely to escape that – I’m on the same treatment as the dog for this and it's not MS related - LOL
All things considered, this is all going according to plan, the thyroid problems whilst unwelcome were a known side effect and not unexpected. - MS wise things are going to plan.
Life and stuff for the last week have been good. The ‘spine guy’ as released me from treatment, the injection to the nerve cluster may take many months to show any result and it’s a just wait and see scenario. I’m now released from the Eye clinic, infection has gone completely and whilst the scarring in my left eye has left a ‘fuzzy bit’ (think looking through a bit of frosted bathroom glass) I can see light and shade through that bit so it’s not as bad as originally thought to be.

I’m picking up my new ‘seeing’ glasses this Saturday so I can get rid of these awful black framed things I’m currently wearing and replace them with the much prettier new prescription ones.
Gareth is planning a short trip ‘oop norf’ this weekend to go and see the last day of his friends ‘Hallilapse’ show. Given the recent issues with Winston and his anxiety I’m going to stay home with the dogs and just relax. This does mean that since it’s yet another bank holiday weekend here in the UK, I can add a couple of days wrapper around the weekend and have a 5 day break, with Gareth and I still getting a ‘weekend’ together just a little later than normal – the caveat for this is that Gareth can get leave approved – bit pointless me booking it if he can’t really.

Saturday night was good fun, we had company and watched the Eurovision song contest. Not a huge ‘drink-fest’ although we did have a go at the drinking game. I love that Iceland always sends artists who enjoy the opportunity to shout at the rest of Europe, the yodelling Australians on windscreen wipers were very strange and as always the UK entry was just disappointing. Madonna is neither aging well; or gracefully and her dancers with their ‘mini-protest’ went largely unnoticed.

EDIT - for those readers in Norway, rather liked your entrant, although the guy with the bald head reminded me a lot of the singer from Right Said Fred - I kept expecting him to sing 'I'm too sexy' every time the camera moved to him :-) cc
This week looms one more with plans afoot. Tuesday is a night out at a new start up holiday business that a friend of ours is running - that can only be traumatic for the savings account. Wednesday a night out with Terry for a meal and catch up. I should probably do the work thing too - unless the Euromillions comes up trumps (not Donald) tomorrow night. New glasses on Saturday, then the weekend when Gareth gets home (see previous caveat).

Not quite the glamourous and hectic lifestyle we’d like, but then we also have to consider Winston and his anxiety into the equation. He’s getting there, a little better each time but he’s got a long way to go. Amber is better each day, still wobbly but better.
All things considered, life in the Doust world is pretty awesome really, the sun is shining and life is good.

So here we go with the start of year 5 post Lemtrada continuing to kick arse and take numbers.
Last Friday’s blood results for your enjoyment – As usual there are some misbehaves and some wins. Lymphocytes are satisfactorily low, Thyroid is still within the normal range (barely)

It’s all good, hope you’re all enjoying the wins xxx

Monday, 13 May 2019

The last post of YEAR 4 - sunshine, and stuff


Scores on the doors for things I wanted to achieve over the long weekend
Jobs around the house – FAIL
Relaxation – WIN
Eye Check-up – PARTIAL WIN
Dogs having lots of fun – WIN

The hospital went well yesterday, the Ophthalmologist has said I can now stop the drops and the gel stuff in my eye. She did say I can’t be signed off just yet, I have to go back again next week to check the infection hasn’t returned with me stopping the drops – she went to great lengths to explain that the infection in my eye was very severe and it’s imperative that they are sure the infection is gone (flesh eating eye thing sprung to mind when she was talking about it – EEEK).
I have an appointment next Sunday to go and have my eyes tested again to quantify just how much my prescription might have changed, plus since I can’t wear contacts any more, I’m going to need prescription sunglasses as well as just normal ‘seeing’ glasses (I can hear the savings account whimpering at the damage this is going to do to him)

The 4 day weekend was lovely, although I never did get round to doing the house stuff and Gareth forgot to mow the garden (you’re going be in trouble with doggy day care for that one Gareth)
We are trying something new with Winston to see if it will help with his separation anxiety, CBD Oil of all things – it’s supposed to be very effective for dog anxiety. Watch this space for progress updates.

There are going to be busy times coming up in the next few weeks, it’s also coming up on ‘that’ time of year again when it’s the anniversary of losing people and all that. I’m hoping the busy makes for it being more balanced this year.
We finally got round to watching season 1 of Call Of Duty over the weekend, binge watched season 1 in a single sitting. We always seem to get to these things long after the rest of the country has enjoyed watching them (I joined ‘Vera’ at season 8 earlier this year)

Dog news …
Amber is much better, she’s still very wobbly and can fall over, but she’s still completely mad for her food and loves to go off an ‘beagle’ so unless she’s unhappy we are okay with that.

Winston seems to be dealing with Ambers stroke far worse than she is. His separation anxiety has gone through the roof.  He shakes when he thinks we are going to leave the house and barks hysterically when we do. We are doing what we can to keep him in a calm state of mind, music playing when we do have to leave him, Adaptil Plug ins around the house (it smells like old people here) lavender oil on all the dogs collars and some CBD Oil as a food supplement.
So we are trying a new brand – yes – WE are, the dogs and I are now on simply CBD – the light formula arrived a few days ago and I figured since I have to remember for them – well I might just remember for me to so why not give it another try. It’s been a couple of days, it’s way too soon to tell if it will be effective for Winston or me, but his desire to vanquish anyone who comes to the house (particularly the postman) and the continual, never ending buzzing in my left hand – well they both seem a little reduced – could also be wishful thinking though so I will reserve my product review. Winston will stay on the light – my I’m pending a delivery of the blue formula (but sharing the dog dose in the interim J)

EDIT
Sorry – it’s now Monday of the next week – this is still open in a Word document on my laptop and I haven’t hit post yet – I’m a bad, bad blogger.

Well the weekend was lovely, BBQ on Sunday after I’d been and had my eye appointment – new glasses are on order and arriving on the 25th, there’s a small snafau with the sunglasses but that should be resolved later today with a phone call.
Saturday was a great chance to catch up with friends at the social event of the year – Jasper’s 3rd Birthday Party (we are so rock and roll)

Yesterday evening I had the surprise news yesterday evening (randomly through an obscure slating of someone’s dish  on Rate My Plate) that my lovely friend Terry is over from Australia so we are going to catch up over the next couple of weeks with him and hopefully also with his lovely other half when she gets here. It’s been 2 years since we saw them so it’s going to be lovely to catch up with them.

I’m back at the hospital tomorrow for what will hopefully be the last check up on my eye. Thursday I’m at Circle Hospital again for the follow-up appointment with ‘the spine guy’ – I’m not entirely convinced that the being stabbed in the neck thing did much at all overall, but I’ve pretty much got used to living with the slightly numb arm now so I’m not inclined to do anything more invasive to try and correct it.

Winston and I have been on our CBD rations for a week, he seems a little calmer (well the neighbours haven’t complained about him this week) he still shakes when we leave, but I think is barking has reduced. I wish I could just have a chat with him and find out what is triggering his anxiety though (if Dr Doolittle is reading this please get in touch) For me, well my left hand is still ‘buzzy’ but then it has been for years so that’s not new, I’m upping the dosage a little this week to see if that can help (as per the guidelines) will update if something wonderful happens.
As usual at this time of year, my thoughts are turning to my weight and doing something more proactive about getting some ‘chunk’ off. I’ve lost 2 stone doing the 16:8 fasting method, but I’m thinking it’s time to up the ante a little, lower the carb intake and double the reward. And if I’m brutally honest I’ve been quite rubbish with 16:8 in the last few weeks so I need to give it a bit of a boost anyway. We only have 3 months to go until we go on holiday so there’s my target – lose as much as I can by our holiday J

I have my first bloods of Year 5 on Friday. This is the final year of my mandatory monthly blood tests. It’s strange, but part of me isn’t comfortable with the thought of them stopping. As much as it’s a pain in the arse getting them done, there’s a level of comfort to be felt from getting them - I’m not entirely sure I want them to stop. The subconscious does strange things sometimes, I’ve been looking forward to them being over and done with and now I’m nervous that they will be over and done.
So that’s me for this week (and last – still sorry about that)

Hope everyone’s enjoying some sunshine and better days
xxx